Over-Socialization

I've self-diagnosed myself as being over-socialized. I reached this conclusion while at work about two weeks ago. As I neared the end of the day, I let out a sigh of exhaustion just after finishing a conversation with a coworker. I thought about nothing more than going home to have one final conversation for the day with my fiancé and going to bed. I dreaded the thought of having to speak to anyone else or being coerced into another social situation even though it was the weekend. I had absolutely no desire to go out, hang out or do anything that involved having to be in a social setting with people. I simply wanted to be alone.

Upon having this realization, I sent a text to my fiancé in an attempt to explain and receive validation for my self-diagnosis. He simply responded by asking me "is this good or bad?" I answered, "a little of both, I guess. Good in that I still have enough left in me to talk to you but bad because I don't have any friends because of it."

I'm truly a bad friend. I rarely have the energy to call, hold a conversation, or visit with anyone that I currently consider a friend and I have no desire to go out and meet people to make new friends. So, in an attempt to do something about my condition, I conversed and visited with friends and family all week.

Starting last Sunday, I made it a point to call a couple of my current friends. I had family and friends of the family over for dinner on Thanksgiving. I even visited with my future in-laws and took them homemade lasagna and apple pie. This week culminated today in brunch with my mom and future mother-in-law, a social visit with a close friend where we spent hours talking and catching up over a cup of coffee, and dinner and dessert at my twin best friends' mom's house at which we celebrated the mom's birthday, a twin's going away and my god-son knowing his ABC's (or at least all the ones that are used to spell out HAPPY BIRTHDAY in birthday candles).

I'm socially EXHAUSTED and it's only the beginning of the week. I'll pray tonight for the will to continue at this social pace as I know that communication between all parties involved in my recent socially-overloaded week are necessary to the success of my wedding and my overall happiness in the next phase of my life. But please...please pray for me as well. Our collective prayers are sure to not go unanswered.